I’m not even sure what’s going through my mind right now. Just keep drawing.
Of course because I like you, admitted that to you and then you admit a mutual fondness of me, you then state you have a boyfriend. Awesome. Dont worry it wouldn’t have been pretty dating me anyway.
Just deposited 840 bucks in my account. Just from tattooing for the last week and a half.
Fuck I love tax season. Now if i knew how to save. :/
I dont really draw with alot of feelings and do the artsy shit that leads to “oh I was just experiencing so much in life I needed to express it and let it out through my art” type of art. I understand it. I get it. But lets face the music here mofos, if I did do that shit most of the time I’d be drawing unicorns and Bigfoot. #youwillgetthatmetaphorifyouwantto #onewinged #moth #maybe #unicornsandbigfootdontexist #thereforeneitherarereal #justlikemyfeelings
We’re born alone in this world.
And in the end we die the same way.
So why on earth should the in between be any fucking different.
So torn right now. But cant even say anything. Cant be mad. Cant be upset. Let’s face it you arent mine to be upset over. Which just makes me feel more lost about what to feel and how to say that. I guess I dont need to say anything. I just need to shutup. I just need to be.
I can already feel my emotions trying to revert to the old me. The ugly me. And its hard to not let that happen. I dont want to be that way. I just want it to go away. I just want everything to feel ok again. Not perfect like it once was, I know i dont deserve that. But I want ok. I do deserve that.
Really wish I knew how to feel to either of you. I feel like my last friend has abandoned me. Everyone else has so why not keep going. And why not her too. Why not everyone just keep away from me. Why do you need me around to watch and to feel this? Why the fuck am I still here now? Why have I been up to here anyway? I serve you no purpose. I add little to your life. Why do I feel like this? Why is this what I get?